I dont sleep
I dont eat
I dont talk
I dont live
My brain is going on a high level
It feels like theres a whole world
going on inside me
I cant seem to put anything in order
It goes to fast
It goes soooo fast
Im so tired
But I have no peace
My dreams has changed
into a waken highspeed reality
I feel hunger
But its so heavy to swallow
My heart is blocking my throut
My brain is inside my stomach
So full of shit
I wanna through up

:Angel ene

Depression

I'm lost....
into one of those rooms in my head
where im searching....
for those Magical Words,
To break through.....
this noise of silence inside my heart
all my words are nothing worth
They came out backwards,
and you never understood
when i said heart....
you thought hurt....
Come in here...
I want you
To find me
Let me write golden letters all over your skin
like glowing lines on the dark of your shadow
The one that disapeared
into the noise of your silence...
Please...................................................
..................whisper..............to me....
...........................................
......Those Magic Words..........

:Angel ene

Melek Sarký söylemek....... cok ve seevdim......... ..... ........




güzeeelllllll..................

Gri At Istioyrum.... :)

Istioyrum Atgri...... :/

This morning someone just melted my heart again...

It's where I come from....
These women of strenght....
These women of thoughts....
These women with hidden storyes in their hearts...

I know I dont know the Facts
Im sitting here in my world
drinking cava...
Thought i should celebrate
"I dont know what"
The fact that i'll never be able to love
The fact that i always screw up my life
The fact that i'll have a whole book soon
The fact that i continuesly argue with my self
The fact i do think im sometimes realy brilliant
and next second a total fool
The fact i believe in my dreams
The fact that im the only one who does
The fact that i still love the Ocean
Even i'm so scared of drowning
The fact he'll never know how much
The fact that i never hate any one
The fact i got a furious temper
The fact im a twisted soul
with too many issues
The fact that i survived
what ever i've been through
The fact i tell stupid stories
and small lies
to the ones i realy love
just to scare them away
so i can agree to my self
that its true im too crazy to love
The fact that im always scared
but completely fearless
The fact that im too much alone
but never lonely
The fact that everyone is angry at me
for not answering my phone
The fact that people wants to see me
but i dont have place in my world
The fact i got 4 personalityes
and a diagnose
called biopolar personality disorder
The fact that i manage to live
The fact im never scared of dying
The fact that im looking forward to be old
even it takes so long for me
The fact that im feeling like 6 years old
and my thoughts are a million years ahead
The fact i dont know what to do
most of the time
The fact i never stop believing in eternal love
The fact i lost my heart and still are breathing
The fact that im still positive
I'm sitting here in my universe
drinking cava....
Thought i should celebrate
that: "i know what i dont know"
:Angel ene

Ohhh Panda mine...
I'm certain
That my words where all
intangible
where yours were always
conceivable

Ohhh Panda mine...
I'm certain
That my heart where all
a trial of patience
Where yours were always
the patience of Job

Ohhh Panda mine....
I'm certain
That my feelings where all
a misty nebulah
Where yours were always
a lucid serenity

Ohhh Panda mine....
I'm certain
That my love where all
and still are everything
While yours are silent
and vanished


:Angel ene

I'm sure it's no coincidence that the word "LIVE" is "EVIL" backwards.....