Angel's turce kursus...
beni isitiyorun,
beni konusumiyorum kafayinda icinde... eehheeeeeeeeeee

Taking a facemask when having a fever
and watching Peter Pan crying
at the same time...
Is not a good idea!

boooufff.. ouuufff...
(Hastayim)
I'm so i'll..
Yesterday morning I woke up,
feeling like someone had kicked my whole body all night,
my stomach felt like million knives twisting...
All day I zombied around like a living dead
trying to find a peacefull coffin...
freezing, swetting, aching and shaking...
Every painkiller I took went right out again...
Only late in the evening I finally managed to keep it inside...
and I slept some hours... Today I feel a tiny bit better,
atleast I manage to hold a glass of water...
Laying on the couch watching turkish television
laptop infront of me and feeling million years old.
It's no fun to be sick when the whole house is empty,
and theres no one to feel sorry for you...
I feel guilty too, for not being at work :(
It's tragic when a nurse gets sick,
& it's a disaster when an artist has no energy!
Oufff....

hastayim :(

I'ts ok
for me
to have
everything
I want!

Seni, beni ve balik
You, me and fish

I miss the people I meet in my dreams...

Rüyalar bile geceleri bekler
Gizlice görünmek için
Yüreğimdesin, saklısında içimin
Gizlice sevgilim

Kimse bilmesin üzgünlüğümü
Taşırım ölümüm gibi bu duyguyu
En gizli kuytularında ömrümün
Bir yer var gizlice sevgilimin uyuduğu Gizlice sevgilim, yaşam kadar acı
Canımı tutuşturan özlem gibi
Özlüyorum derin yokoluşta
Gizlice sevgilimi

Strange dreams last night
I woke up atleast 3 times
and went back to the same dream all the time
I was most certainly back in Istanbul
and everything where a bit upside down
some dreams just seems to stay under your skin
& this one had some tense feelings in a good way
kinda a scary but though so exciting
Anyway...
The second time I woke up, I was really confused,
some turkish words where continious repeating in my head
and I managed in a bemused state to write them down on a note,
before I again went back into the same dream...
When I woke up
I saw the note

"geri gitmek göriteye"

Download

I think I'll fall into a serious depression...

if I don't see the sun soon...

All your broken promises
hanging like dark clouds above me
All your silence
laying like a cold winter infront of me

Sen gittikten sonra yalnız kalacağım.
yalnız kalmaktan korkmuyorum da,
ya canım ellerini tutmak isterse...
I will be alone after you go.
and I am not afraid of being alone,
but what if I want to hold your hands...

One is enough...
..if it's the only One!