Angel's turce kursus...
beni isitiyorun,
beni konusumiyorum kafayinda icinde... eehheeeeeeeeeee

Taking a facemask when having a fever
and watching Peter Pan crying
at the same time...
Is not a good idea!

boooufff.. ouuufff...
(Hastayim)
I'm so i'll..
Yesterday morning I woke up,
feeling like someone had kicked my whole body all night,
my stomach felt like million knives twisting...
All day I zombied around like a living dead
trying to find a peacefull coffin...
freezing, swetting, aching and shaking...
Every painkiller I took went right out again...
Only late in the evening I finally managed to keep it inside...
and I slept some hours... Today I feel a tiny bit better,
atleast I manage to hold a glass of water...
Laying on the couch watching turkish television
laptop infront of me and feeling million years old.
It's no fun to be sick when the whole house is empty,
and theres no one to feel sorry for you...
I feel guilty too, for not being at work :(
It's tragic when a nurse gets sick,
& it's a disaster when an artist has no energy!
Oufff....

hastayim :(

I'ts ok
for me
to have
everything
I want!

Seni, beni ve balik
You, me and fish

I miss the people I meet in my dreams...

Rüyalar bile geceleri bekler
Gizlice görünmek için
Yüreğimdesin, saklısında içimin
Gizlice sevgilim

Kimse bilmesin üzgünlüğümü
Taşırım ölümüm gibi bu duyguyu
En gizli kuytularında ömrümün
Bir yer var gizlice sevgilimin uyuduğu Gizlice sevgilim, yaşam kadar acı
Canımı tutuşturan özlem gibi
Özlüyorum derin yokoluşta
Gizlice sevgilimi

Strange dreams last night
I woke up atleast 3 times
and went back to the same dream all the time
I was most certainly back in Istanbul
and everything where a bit upside down
some dreams just seems to stay under your skin
& this one had some tense feelings in a good way
kinda a scary but though so exciting
Anyway...
The second time I woke up, I was really confused,
some turkish words where continious repeating in my head
and I managed in a bemused state to write them down on a note,
before I again went back into the same dream...
When I woke up
I saw the note

"geri gitmek göriteye"

Download

I think I'll fall into a serious depression...

if I don't see the sun soon...

All your broken promises
hanging like dark clouds above me
All your silence
laying like a cold winter infront of me

Sen gittikten sonra yalnız kalacağım.
yalnız kalmaktan korkmuyorum da,
ya canım ellerini tutmak isterse...
I will be alone after you go.
and I am not afraid of being alone,
but what if I want to hold your hands...

One is enough...
..if it's the only One!

Nårhhh ja...
så var det altså Vagn...
hmmm

eeeheheheeee...
Operation Burka

I'm a cookie fabric
..or just sleepless..

It was sunny on the day the journey began
Seems I was a part of some lack of a plan
Was I early?
'Cause you weren't ready

Looking back now where it all seems bizarre
The boy in the photo on the seat of the car
That's me
At least it was me
Back then

Please leave all shiny objects behind
You won't need them where we're going
Relax, take a deep breath, and concentrate now
We really must be gone
There's a risk in everything we undertake
But now you must trust me more than anyone

'Cause i've seen things
That you could only dream about
I've been to places that you'll never find
And I've had dreams that you couldn't even fit inside your head now
All the places I wish I could find

'Cause I've seen things
That you could only dream about
I've been to places that you'll never find
And I've had dreams that you couldn't even fit inside your head now
All the places i wish i could find

Guess we can't really choose exactly where we land
But how fast you were bound is in your own hands
Are you ready?
Am I too early?

Looking back now where it all seems bizarre
The boy in the photo on the seat of the car
That's me
At least it was me
Back then

Relax, take a deep breath, and concentrate now
We really must be gone
There's a risk in everything we undertake
Now, you must trust me more than anyone

:Flotation Toy Warning/Happy 13

Im so sorry
my spirit's rarely in my body

Trip over B to the C

I am the night I am the moon at your window
everyone knows the fool that I am
Like a bird making roots for winter
Can you recall we used to be friends?

I am the day I am the sun in your garden
Maybe I light the way to your heart
Like a song playing after evening
everyone knows the fool that I am

Love is coming 'round again
Have you spent your chances worrying?
have you seen or need a friend?
Everyone is looking for something
everyone is looking for someone
fool

I am the smile that will secretly offer
no hesitation for your delight
before hurt before love was questioned
And we believed in love at first sight

Love is coming 'round again
Have you spent your chances worrying?
have you seen or need a friend?

Fool that I am but I can see you tumbling and turning,
never learning, I don't understand
Fool, fool
Love me forever fool that I am
Here at your service fool that I am
the fool that I am

:Kula Shaker/Fool that I am

Playing with the dog... ;)

Playing with the morning light...

I wanna move to the country...

After 4 years
My (little) dad came...
(when did he schrink smaller than me??? :)

Love is a memory of colours & shadows in light & darkness

Why does my pillow still tell me old dreams about you?

Sokakta giderken, kendi kendime
Gülümsediğimin farkına vardığım zaman
Beni deli zannedeceklerini düşünüp
Gülümsüyorum.

¤¤¤

When I walk on the street, alone
If I notice that I am smiling
I think that people will suppose I am crazy
And I smile.

:Orhan Veli Kanık

Ja, så har mor her lige fixet suppe
med hjemmelavede melboller & kødboller...

...ikke dårlig det, neeejjj...
Nu må jeg vel klare at finde en mand snart :/

It's Time...
Time to see some bright stars move
Time to hear some soft snow fall
Time to touch some red hearts
Time to feel some true love Time to go where happiness live
Time to move from black to white
Time to say goodbye to a delusion

we should boycott women who don't cry!

No hay mas que decir....

I know how you feel...
....it feels safe!

eeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhh....
Did I just have thee most weird dream...
I dreamt:

I was married......

and
very
Happy

nice one
bring me another one

You're in my mind...
You're in my head... ...at this moment you're as good as dead!

chaos

When I cant sleep at night...
I do only sweet things...

I met this cute one on my way home tonight :)

I went to bed...
but I kept on thinking and thinking
and I just went up againg
and I'm still pondering about my son,
and about the other boy
and I always promised myself
never to hate anyone...
But those feelings I got inside me lately...
Those are not love!
It does'nt feel good, a angry taste in my mouth
The pictures I picture in my head
aint pretty ones...
I did'nt know I had so much rage inside me
Is it this
they call
mother love?

One positive thing today, noo... two...

1: it's not raining!
2: I got the job I aplied for!
;)

It does'nt matter who you try to be
if you can't be the one you used to be for me!

Look after me and I'll look after you
Thats something we both forgot to do
Look after me and I'll look after you
Thats something we both forgot to do
I find it hard to see your face day to day de hay
Cannot remember it well enough
Only the details such that i see it in my head
When I am with you it is familiar and beautiful
And I love it as I love it
As night comes in I know it better seeing it this clear again

Look after me and I'll look after you
Thats something we both forgot to do
Look after me and I'll look after you
Thats something we both forgot to do

As if i'm squinting I see you are
So far from me, far from me
As if by miracle I see your room, I see a street
With words and music these images
They come back to me, back to me
Crystal clear in my head but its behind the screen

Look after me and I'll look after you
Thats something we both forgot to do
Look after me and I'll look after you
Thats something we both forgot to do

Every time I see your face I break down and cry
I see it in your family as they walk on by

Come back to me and I'll come back to you
That's something we can always do
Come back to me and I'll come back to you
That's something we both always will

:Hot Chip/Look after me

Pieces are coming together!

Proud owner of an empty blue balloon!

...and then we had a long conversation, without saying anything!

It really really hurts...
when your child is bugged or hassled at school!
...and I would do anything to swop place with him...
Today my sons teacher called,
telling me that he has'nt been to school all week???
Where has he been???

Well...
and most likely as he says now, he's been pretending every
morning going to school, but instead he's been sitting down by the river
writing poems!!!

..and why??

Well, it has to be said, that my son is not mostly like other children,
he has a bit weird and spezial thoughts and are not into the usual boy stuff,
but he does'nt bother others, and likes to do his own things,
like drawing and pondering.
Some other boy has apparently got a bad eye to him,
and dragged most of the other kids with him,
and started a complete exclusion of my son,
and they've gived him the nickname: "Jew Boy"
(I do follow the jewish tradition but I dont speak very loud about my beliefs,
and I cant see why that should be a problem, I've always taught my children to respect other peoples beliefs no matter what they believe!)

Anyway...
I just wanted to express how it hurts inside my heart,
when I picture this small skinny boy
sitting every day by the river writing poems
and how I would do anything to take his pain away
and how powerless it feels
that I cant remove what bothers him.
I have now decided to take him out of school
and get him into another school,
namely the "Rudolf Steiner School"
who teaches with a different philosophy,
not that I got any money for it,
but that will be an issue to dissolve later!

Right now I'm just so tired of everything...
and if something nice does'nt happen soon..
I'm gonna do something drastic like running away
or hide in a very very dark hole!
and my bum is too big too... :(

All we need....
en hattifnathatmedduskpåhovedet!

whatever it is
I wont think of it
Nothing can be something
and
something can be everything
and everything
does'nt have to mean anything

Nothing never goes as planned!!!

...sweet home...

It was after drinking some of those...

Best before: The others has left...

I scared someone....

euahahaha...
I'll never grow up :)

I will never wait for you again....
I will never dream of you again....

I got a glue heart :(

ohhh...
today I have aplied for 3 jobs, and called the Mr. Doctor at the hospital(because they never call me here) Seems like sometimes the CA-125 levels can be high without any major danger, (why could they not tell me that in the first place???) But for now it looks like I'm ok, just have to come for control again in a month or so... hmmm...
and by the way, I got a new dog, it's a spaceship dog with glowing eyes, just what I need :)

This morning I woke up realy scared,
because I suddenly noticed that I could'nt remember
where I have placed my heart and my spaceship glasses...
& I kind of need them both now :/

Lo peor no es sentirse solo, sino que te olvide alquien a quien no puedes olvidar!
The worst feeling isn't being lonely, its being forgotten by someone you cant ever forget!