Interesting..???
Yes indeed Interesting.......
The missing is purple...
The loonging is a clear colour...
The memory is black and white...
The picture is........... not finished...
The history is still......still......still....
The ariving of happiness
If I tell you
I dont love you
Then my words is without colours
of all I once told and of all I was afraid to say
The words is still.....still....still....
to become written upon your skin
in my sleep I am smiling in sorrow
trying to reach out for your soul
The dreams are still....still....still....
so still.....
you

:Angel ene

You always take the heart of me
and leave it there it stays to be
what is it for?
do you want more?

it takes a while to grasp on to
the softness of a heart anew
what is it for?
why did you wrong me?

in the bus
I fall all the time
my feet give up
and gravity is mine
I throw myself
from anything that's tall
and fall

I want to live
and learn to love
and you're the one
I put above
but what is it for?
could there be more?

in the bus
I fall all the time
my feet give up
and gravity is mine
I throw myself
from stairs and trains
from trees and planes
as long as I can fall

Prepair Disapear Absorb Transform
hollow light painless sight Im so tired
I wanna leave

Wake Me Love…
Yes, I got a pain…
It’s heart pollution,
and it’s eating me from the inside…
It’s a sickness,a illness and insanity,
a refugee from the reality of clarity
I can’t, and nor won't I see...
All the dirty facts,
in every move he make
I easily turn them into magic acts
that's devouring me like a hungry wave
And so I continue to believe
In a dream of a dying breath
A sleep of which I cant awake
And when I look at me…
I hate my self .....For being….
I hate my self......For believing….
Every word he says
It’s memorized
inside my childish heart
For a child’s love is pure
And blinded down
by its own beliefs of truth
Yes, I got a pain
Like a disappointed child
Like a heart thrown inside out
My love is a open wound,
Like a nebula covering the ground
Like a misty blurred morning
Without a sight into my soul
Ohhh, when I look at me,
.....how I hate my self…
for believing............. in my dreams
ohhh, how I hate my self,
for being..............
such a child in love

:Angel ene

Clown
How does it feel
to do what you do?
Wandering around
in a costume that stinks
High above the clouds
trying to get by
You don’t make me smile
Even when you pass me by
You can’t make me smile
It’s plain and simple
what you have to do
to get by

How does it feel
to do what you do?
Wandering around
In a complete misery
You don’t make me smile
Even when you pass me by
You can’t make me smile
It’s plain and simple
what you have to do
to get by

:AMPOP

My Life Underwater

Now that your water fills my lungs
I dream for only one dreaming
as my fingers search
for a crack in the eyes
Then a unexpected moment
as my eyelids slowly part
I realize I'm not even a fish

Then I could be happy, as you told me before
if its painful
just swallow some more

My lips are parted
as I sink from your weight
through your coma
Can you tell I'm afraid?

With my hands before my eyes
through the cracks between my fingers
I see the creatures going by
and I grain
and I wonder to my self
what goes on there on the bottom

And I dream as you scream in my ear
I could be happy, as you told me before
if its painful
just swallow some more

My lips are parted
as I sink from your weight
through your coma
can you tell I'm afraid?

I could be happy, as you told me before
If its painful
just swallow some more

My lips are parted
as I sink from your weight
through your coma
Can you tell WHY I'm afraid???

I'm Environmentally effected from heart pollution...
:Angel ene

Breathing With LOw VEnt Air Faults

I know it sounds untrue,
that...
I would have died for you....
But I did'nt really have to....
You killed me quietly
with your lack of words...

It's amazing how I manage to cry without a sound..?
Is it because you drained my soul into the ground?
Love Love Love
It's how sadness feels
when it's behind my hidden veils
It's amazing how I manage to cry without a sound..?
Is it because you drained my heart into the ground?

I wish I could hear
your detuned soul,
when your mind
turns into a noisy song
and your heart is longing
for my foolish chords...

It's amazing how silent you slammed the door...?
Is it because I heard you long before...?
Love Love Love
It's just these coloured words
coming from my crazy world
It's amazing how silent you slammed the door...?
Is it because I could'nt hear you long before...?

Love Love Love
It's how my heart sounds
Breathing with low vent air faults

:Angel ene

I'm a Fool in a game played by an Idiot...

dünyai tozpembe göriyorum...
I know I have a tendense to wiev the the world through rose coloured glasses,
and to me everything looks brighter and feels safer...
I took them of and tried to see everything in a clear realistic sight.........
but it all turned into a nebulah...
and I lost it..... it felt like walking inside a vakuum...
and it still seems and feels a bit tenefibric around me....
What have I done.... in here out here inside my self....??? I dont know!!!
I stumbled around apprehending for anything soothing in my mind,
illusions of nothing and fading dreams from the past....
chewing on old memories and a lost childhood...
and in the end I was just falling....
Got in progress one painting but lost it on the way
and sat in motion another idea who brought me into tears....
all day all night all over my self....
forgot eating again...
The insane energy from starving my self
feeling the thoughts in my mind spinning on a high level took me in....
and in the end the physical pain came with the psychial suffering....
I lost 6 kg and woke up
feeling like God had hit me in the back of my neck with a baseball bat,
my arms was aching and I could'nt move them
and it creaked and squeaked when I tryed to move my head....
I had to see a Doc...
and I got tendonitis inflammation in my neck and muscles and lack of nutrition.......
that's it and it's slowly getting better......
Now I just got to find my rose coloured glasses
and search for happiness............
:Angel ene

I want the Fishermans Friend...
The one with long skinny legs in rubber boots...
I want the fishermans Friend...
The one with beard as long as a road...
I wanna tell him stories under the stars
about magic wonders inside my heart..
I wanna kiss his dirty face
and show him moisty desire on the muddy ground...
I want the Fishermans friend...
I wanna love out his brain...

:Angel ene

snow came early....
You're a red carusel of pain
Spinning my soul around
You devite heaven from ground
and I'm hanging in between...
So slow
So silent
memories merged into frozen dreams...
You're a blue carusel of words
Spinning my mind around
You devite heaven from ground
and I'm hanging in between
So slow
So silent
colours came out of your mouth
You're a purple carusel of love
spinning my heart around
You devite heaven from ground
and I'm hanging in between
So slow
So silent
words without a life.......line..
You're a constant carusel of invasion
Spinning my life around
You devite heaven from ground
and I'm hanging in between
So slow
So silent
I lost the string

:Angel ene

I never answer my phone.....

Everone knows that....

Everyone "WHO KNOWS ME" knows that:
I NEVER ANSWER MY PHONE!!!

I guess you never knew me...!!!

And If you dont know me....
There's no reason for calling me...

Because.....
I NEVER ANSWER MY PHONE...
Because I know it's you...
and I wont know you....

:Angel ene

Look who's here...
My crazy Cat!
MOVIE

Blue eye'd GoD!!!
This morning...
when I was opening up my eyes,
I looked straight into GoD's face.....
He sat on the floor infront of me,
with a grin on his face...
I asked him:
"what on EARTH are you smiling at"
He answered:
"You..."
I punched him....
right in the middle of his face...
This morning....
GoD just left me...

:Angelene

I got spyware in my Brain and a Virus in my Heart....
I keep spamming my Life and my Soul feels like trash...
My Spirit is haunted and my Love is a Ghost...........
:Angelene